pyrokitty, the Vulnerable Extrovert ;)

LOI.MIA.

2010-05-12T11:13:00.001+08:00

Will start blogging ; Once I get the urge back.

Shuffling to our feet.

2010-04-13T10:51:00.004+08:00

Went out to meet my shuffling peeps from the past ! :D

Aaronbyn from THF? gay much xD !

HM/KitChaiz, UHD/Andz, UHD/Fizmo, THF/Aaronbyn, Joe Yee. tak lah, we all don't shuffle now ! (:

Aaron's gay face :D

Andz! (:

SiewHoong's 19th (:

2010-04-13T10:47:00.002+08:00

It was also a fun filled day at SiewHoong's place. We threw up a surprise party for him that very day ! (:

XC and me.

Birthday boy! (: *I look like a chick* -_-

And so, there goes ! (:

Proceed.

2010-04-13T10:40:00.002+08:00

I feel like I owe everyone lots of blog posts and therefore I'll pay what I owe you guys today :)

After the graduation in March, I ventured into a degree course after THREE DAYS of rest, haha :D

My course is named Bsc(Hons) Information Systems. A combination of business and IT (: !

As I'm in the fourth week now, stress abounds as my lecturers slowly adds the load day by day.

Well, 3 more years to go? (:

FIA graduate (:

2010-03-26T10:16:00.003+08:00

Finally got the urge to update, and so, here it is :D

Was kinda pissed when I was told that results are not gonna be released on the 12th, seemingly because I had sleepless nights already and that short term insomnia lasted till 5pm or so, I believe, when I receive an email stating that I officially graduated ;D

On the 16th of March, Graduation day ceremony (:

My first gang (:

Woots, the scroll! (:

Karena (:

Jacky and Jack (:

My 2nd gang (: just part of them.

Wonder where's hueymin, wanchin and chongkian xD

My laughing buddy, cheeboon ;D

Been going out quite frequent lately, haha. The night is always young :D

Teeeheee! :D

2010-03-26T02:05:00.002+08:00

I promise, I'll update tomorrow! ;D

Pinky promise, pyrokitty (:

Lethargic.

2010-03-09T18:17:00.002+08:00

(: !

Hello world ; Hello earthlings!
Life's kinda settled down for the moment, no ? Examinations ended, but then, just so you know, blahhhh, whatever, results are coming out this Friday. Taking my undang test this very Thursday :D

A time of rest. Been going out with the usual peeps as well. So longgg! (:

Ended

2010-03-05T18:11:00.002+08:00

Hey peeps ! (:

Finals ended dramatically, as I've promised to shuffle my way out to the exit. But ! It didn't happen, just so you know, I screwed up my maths paper, till I think teacher wouldn't understand why is it so blank. Sigh. Big Sighhh.

Perhaps this is a good lesson to learn, through the 4months. Piffts. Results are not out yet, but low expectation would keep my hype toned down. Oh well, what goes around comes around. If I really pass and graduate, it must be the hand of God.

Hmmm. Holidays now, ask me out ? ;)

Just want to see you smiling without looking back.

Ehhhhh ! (:

2010-02-26T02:47:00.004+08:00

Back from hexagon and yumcha. Har Har ! :D
Well, exams are just next week.
I'm not ready to flunk my maths, sigh, uni life is just around the corner, but not if I flunk my maths :(
I'll be studying like a nerd after tomorrow's badminton session. If you wanna offer me to tutor me in maths, please do so, I need loads of help ! :(

I promise I'll update a proper one before Feb ends. Ciao ! :D

p/s - I'm very delighted to see myself featured at your profile (:

chor emm.

2010-02-18T17:34:00.006+08:00

Fifth day of chinese new year ! :D
How's your CNY celebration so far ? So fatt so good ehh ? (: haha :D

Basically the rush to ipoh is cancelled. And from sunday up till today, still visiting and bainian-ing. Went out everyday to different house, to collect red packets. Though collections are not as much as last year. But who cares ? As long as I enjoy, and still get to buy more clothes and stuffs after new year ! :D
Went out yesterday night with Wind and 96. Stayed out till 4am. Mum worried and called. LOL. Reach home 4:30am. hahar ! Might do it again tonight yo ! (:

Booms. Let's move on. Look at today's date. It's ermmm. 18th !
Oh gosh, the end of February is coming ahead.
Which means, my dreadful time of the semester is coming again, Oh Gawd ! :(
Moreover, this will be the overwhelming one, FINALS FOR FIA ! D;

After that, everyone will diversify into their specific fields. Sigh.
Time flies. Well, people come, people go, people are just being people.
Rock on, tigers ! ROARRRRRRR ! :D

Forenight.

2010-02-13T17:45:00.003+08:00

1day before the last day of the year. What do you do ? Of course ! Going out with friends till late night(early morning) ! :D

Haha. Went out with Tingfung, Gahlok, Rainey, Junhui and Suyang last night ! (:

Yum cha until 3:30am. LOL !

Best part is, waking up at 6:50am for men's discipleship class is a miracle. But was uber tired till I got my nap just now, whee ! :)

Going over to Vincent's later, for reunion dinner. I guess everyone's having theirs also right ? (:
Happy CNY in advance ! :D

p/s - my english assignment, dooooooooooooooooooom !

Condolences.

2010-02-11T11:19:00.003+08:00

Hey, tough girl. Sorry to hear for your lost. I know that no words can ever accommodate how you feel right now. But, just want to let you know, that I've always got your back. We've always been there for each other right ? You are a girl who's way mature than your age, seemingly as my age. He's resting in another place, you know that. This is just a circumstance that you'll face and go through. No worries, I've got your back to support you if you need a helping hand. Take care (:

Curfew ? ;)

2010-02-09T10:03:00.004+08:00

Went out again yesterday. HAHA :D
Not so much of a curfew holding back anymore :P

Pool at Pelangi ! (:

Mamak till 3am :D

Can't believe that when I reach home at 3:15, my dad wasn't asleep -.-
He asked me, 'just came back arh?'
I was like , ' Yeah o.o'
Then he went in the room :D
Kinda fun, going out at night :D

And someone was at home, messaging me saying she couldn't go online and come out at such an hour, teehee ! (:

♥

2010-02-05T02:23:00.005+08:00

This conflict happens just last week.
Started off with a minor twitch.
Up till today. I really had a bomb of my life.
I cried myself to sleep yesterday.
Why are we in such a situation.
I woke up this very morning.
Feeling very angry, I blogged.
I skipped my class today, because I know that I need some rest.
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My day was fine when I woke up.
Due to the fluctuation in the mood that I'm having.
I called my buddies out, to play some pool, Asian Cafe.
And up till late night, about 1am plus.
I stumbled upon receiving your long long longgg message.
Cracks. My heart begin to tear into pieces.
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Shortly my mood changed. I rush home.
I don't even know what I'm typing now.
I checked my facebook.
In such a short period. You DELETED me.
I'm astonished.
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I'm called. I'm called. I'm called.
I have a future that I want to serve in preaching.
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I'm not clear with what I want.
But I feel so lost now.
Though my cold words and harsh rejection spills,
but I do have admiration towards you.
In all areas you are fine. Except for just one particular area.
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Why do I feel lost without you.
Even though it has been just 2 hours after I received the message.
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No sense of direction now.
Don't even know how to face you anymore.
Since you think I'm your very first enemy right ?
When I'm 40.
If I'm still single at that time.
I guess the punishment came from this matter.
But I should've expected it earlier.
Since you've rejected like, numerous guys.
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It's good. Now you don't have to worry whether I'll get angry with u anymore.
Whether our childhoods memories are to be kept.
The times where you told me your problems.
I told you mine.
The times I joke with you ; same goes the other way round.
Times when I was so down, that you came and gave me your smile.
When I feel small, when I heard your testimony. Mine was like nothing.
So fortunate that everyone in church looks up to you, but not so much of me.
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Tonight. I just realised I lost my dearest. Whether she'll forgive, it doesn't matter anymore. God, forgive me. I've been a kid in a man's body.
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Whether you'll ever come back and see this post or not. I wouldn't know. I have a heart for you. But, it doesn't count and matter anymore ? =\

My First Love ♥

2010-01-25T11:40:00.001+08:00

I am a little bit of loneliness, a little bit of disregard
Handful of complaints but I can't help the fact
That everyone can see these scars

I am what I want you to want, what I want you to feel
But it's like no matter what I do
I can't convince you to just believe this is real

So, I let go watchin' you, turn your back
Like you always do, face away and pretend that I'm not
But I'll be here 'cause you are all that I've got

I can't feel the way I did before, don't turn your back on me
I won't be ignored, time won't heal this damage anymore
Don't turn your back on me, I won't be ignored

I am a little bit insecure, a little unconfident
'Cause you don't understand, I do what I can
But sometimes I don't make sense

I am what you never want to say but I've never
Had a doubt, it's like no matter what I do
I can't convince you for once just to hear me out

So, I let go watchin' you, turn your back
Like you always do, face away and pretend that I'm not
But I'll be here 'cause you are all that I've got

I can't feel the way I did before, don't turn your back on me
I won't be ignored, time won't heal this damage anymore
Don't turn your back on me, I won't be ignored

No, hear me out now, you're gonna listen to me
Like it or not, right now, hear me out now
You're gonna listen to me like it or not, right now

I can't feel the way I did before
Don't turn your back on me, I won't be ignored

I can't feel the way I did before, don't turn your back on me
I won't be ignored, time won't heal this damage anymore
Don't turn your back on me, I won't be ignored

I can't feel, I won't be ignored, time won't heal
Don't turn your back on me, I won't be ignored

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Just a song dedication for someone ! >=(

Honeymoon.

2010-01-25T01:33:00.003+08:00

Gary and Yen's wedding day went great and smooth. Awesome-Mawsome :D haha. Didn't have much time to eat though, all time focused on the iTunes, changing instrumental tracks. Hands were shivering while I handle the walk-in, walk-out, cake cutting moments. Haha. Well, it's over (:

Guess they're heading to their Honeymoon trip in a few hours time (:
Awww. 1 my elder. 1 my teacher. Perfect match, hee hee (:

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Over the years, I've never ask much. And by the way, it is an ideal time, price, item this time. Why won't you think things through from my side instead of all yours ? Not that I've not been considerate. I sat down and thought about it, then only made a step forward to inform. Why ? Why am I the only child who's not pampered in this particular manner ?

19/1

2010-01-19T14:08:00.004+08:00

It's land is indeed very high, up above the ground.
Locals name it Genting.
Yeah, therefore it's Genting Highland ! ;D
Haha. Went up there for some rides ; at the same time, to celebrate Kinji's birthday.
Not gonna elaborate much. Pictures are all @ Myra, Kwansheng's profile.
Heart popping and hyped up day ! (:

Can't believe I went for this twice. LOL.

A week before the Big Day.

2010-01-17T00:13:00.000+08:00

Went for badminton with the compscience peeps this morning. Haha. Good session. No challenge :P

Men's night out at Yuen's buffet steamboat ; Bridal Shower for the ladies in church.

Superb day :D

Can't believe that Gary's actually getting married next week. awwwwww ! (:

Thursday Night

2010-01-15T01:06:00.002+08:00

What happened at the dining table just hours ago. I'll never forget that very moment. Benchmark, set.

Comparison.

2010-01-10T23:33:00.002+08:00

I was told this morning, about the case where one of the church was interrogated. The people of that church are sad, of course. But the amazing statement that the particular pastor of that church made, after seeing the remains of the church, is " Lord, Bless those who've done this.. "

What a powerful statement that came out of his mouth. I was moved by this simple yet powerful words. What are my problems as compared to those whom their churches are facing these sorts of problems. Perhaps, this is a good illustration for me grasp and learn from.

Who can be against us when God is for us ? Be still, thy faith will not shaken by this temporary turmoil...

1:31am.

2010-01-07T01:28:00.001+08:00

m!Ch3LLe says:
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*hehe
pyrokitty ツ [Low Kum Katt, LOL ;D] says:
*same.
*XD
m!Ch3LLe says:
*slp lar..
pyrokitty ツ [Low Kum Katt, LOL ;D] says:
*i keep reply u nia.
*-_-
*i wait u nia.
m!Ch3LLe says:
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pyrokitty ツ [Low Kum Katt, LOL ;D] says:
*-_-
m!Ch3LLe says:
*haha
*i also lar wei..............
pyrokitty ツ [Low Kum Katt, LOL ;D] says:
*ur fault.
m!Ch3LLe says:
*LOLX.....
pyrokitty ツ [Low Kum Katt, LOL ;D] says:
*hahahahaha.
*OMG.
*TMR U TELL MYRA.
*xD
m!Ch3LLe says:
*go away la u!!!!!!!!!!
*tell wat?
pyrokitty ツ [Low Kum Katt, LOL ;D] says:
*hahahaha.
m!Ch3LLe says:
*say its ur FAULT!!!!
pyrokitty ツ [Low Kum Katt, LOL ;D] says:
*what happen now la.
*XD
m!Ch3LLe says:
*haha
pyrokitty ツ [Low Kum Katt, LOL ;D] says:
*damn funny.
*XD
m!Ch3LLe says:
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*sure!!!!!!!!!!1111
pyrokitty ツ [Low Kum Katt, LOL ;D] says:
*byes =)
m!Ch3LLe says:
*tidor lar.......................
*tata

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Haha. 1:31am.

1st post (:

2010-01-04T00:47:00.003+08:00

Hello peeps (:

New year's eve was great yo ! Pyramid spent the crowd, 10minutes of fireworks ! ;D Awesome night, really. Saddening part was that I canceled all my plans situated on the 1st, because my parents wanted to visit my aunt. But in the morning, I got lied at and ffk-ed at, how nice, ended up staying at home all day long :(

And so it's 2010. Back to classes on Tuesday. I guess my daily routine is hitting the road once again. No more laid backs. I've not done any assignments yet ;D Gosh, I'm gonna be 19 o.o I'm really thrilled about what's coming up this year though.

As far as I've looked out, degree intake, pioneer rally, wonder what's the title for our christmas play, and so on, and so forth. Drama scenes must be more productive, this I will work on it.

Gary's wedding ceremony is just around the corner. Well, he's a full grown man now. He's leaving us youths, on the 23rd =( Congratz, actually (:

A direction where God requires my initiative. Work on it, Kit (:

New Year's Eve ; Last Post of the Year. 2009.

2009-12-31T12:14:00.004+08:00

Well. It's new year's eve yo (:
Surprisingly, my parents allowed me to join my friends for a countdown tonight, haha. Amazing :P

Let's see, how can I describe the year 2009 ? Undescribable. No words can exactly define how my year 2009 went. But from my point of view, 2009 has been a tremendous year for me. I've grown up, a lot.

Jan-March. Spent almost 3months, working in Salvation Christian Book Centre. Experiences gained, up till today, I'm still holding them in my palms. Mee2, Marian, Yen, are my blessed and funny colleagues, haha. But I guess I won't have time or breaks to work there anymore, who knows ? (:

March 19th. Results day. Big bang, as I expect 3A's. Ended up getting an Ace for my english only. Well, this result differed me from going for the intake in July to March. Thank God for His grace and mercy. Every procedure went smoothly, timing, finances, and all sorts of manner.

Many of you know I had an experience with a girl as well. About March - May. A not very official relationship I would say. But, when I came out of it, it wasn't easy. I rant. Like, a lot. But I can strongly say, I've let go. I've forgiven her. And let this be a memorial stone that my friends were there to knock my head up straight to see me grow, back to normal. Well, if she's the one, God would have gave the permit ? (:

From the month of March till today. I've gained so many studying experiences. Friends. Friends, did I mention friends ? :D haha. Many good ones are gained, very grateful. I love each and everyone of you. I will cherish our moments together. I do not want to lose anyone, anymore.

May 2009 - Church's Pioneer Rally. God did wonderous things throughout the whole conference. We've seen countless testimonies being testified as well.

The conflict back in Oct and Nov. All solved now. I learned. I grew up. Saying sorry. Forgive. Let go. Rant not. Is not easy.

December 4-15th. India trip. The truth is, I miss India now (:
I miss Justin and Sam =\

December 27th - The calling to preach the gospel. 2010 will be a great year to start being disciplined.

All the countless hangouts. Thank all of you, my friends, for giving me crazy and funky moments. haha. Jokes, laughters, time spent, entertainment, the thrill.

And tonight, is the final countdown, hahahaha :D

Year 2009 has been a great year. I hope 2010 will be more fulfilling than 2009. Haha.

Happy New Year peeps, early wishes yo, as I won't be around tonight =p

I'm at pyramid =D

The Call.

2009-12-28T23:14:00.002+08:00

6th - The Sunday School's Indian boy.
13th - The men lining up to answer the call ; the boy went as well.
14th - Lunch with Alex & Florence ; The sheep & The goat.
27th - The heart of Nehemiah.

Answering the call, is the best thing that I can do in my walk.

Since Young.

2009-12-24T02:30:00.002+08:00

I really really don't know what's the direction in this particular area. Since young, I've been watering the seed off and on, not expecting much from it. Today, I feel the longevity in it, but still, I don't think it'll harvest, because somehow, to me, still so insecure.

Recently the seed grew to a small plant. But, is that a good sign, asking me to persevere, and wait patiently. Or is it telling me that the fruit of it will be different than what I'm hoping for.

I really don't know. Perhaps, I need a sign from you. My mum permits. Hopefully, things go well within these few years. Who knows, what God and whom God wants for me ? :)

Uncle Tommy and Melvin's Day.

2009-12-22T22:55:00.005+08:00

Happy Birthday, Uncle Tommy :)

And my buddy, Melvin, have a good year ahead :D

Had an awesome night at Uncle Tommy's. ♥

The Grinch 2009.

2009-12-21T00:13:00.002+08:00

The Grinch 2009. A total blast ! Haha. Everything performed adequately, and even better than our normal practices. I'm sure that's the hand of God upon the play :D

Kinda miss it now :( Currently listening to the soundtracks. Feeling into it. Oh well, great play :)

It's not about presents. Not about exchanging gifts. Not visiting the malls either. It's about, Jesus;D

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Merry Chritmas and A Happy New Year, Folks ! :D

Back From India.

2009-12-19T02:04:00.002+08:00

As you all know. I'm back. Haha. India was good, amazing, clean. Good trip :) Pictures are all uploaded at facebook.

And erm, 18hours left, to the awaiting moment of my church's Christmas play.

Guess who's coming to town ? The Grinch ! x)

The Grinch.

2009-12-04T13:04:00.002+08:00

Those who are interested. Please get back to me when I come back from India. I'm looking forward to bring all of you to Whoville, PJ :D

Ciao to India peeps, back on the 15th, don't miss me yo ! :D

Hyena in the Day ; Werewolf in the Night

2009-12-01T09:29:00.007+08:00

Hey peeps, it's the beginning of December :D
Flying to India this particular Friday. I'll not be around Mas from the 4th-15th, Tuesday morning's time I'll be arriving back the airport.
This picture above, is a court in India. A famous one, from what I got to know. I passby this court last year, everyday when I was there, simply because the hall that I was heading to, this court is just along the way. Note that this building, is all built by man-power. Totally not machine dependant. Cool :D Look at the structure o.o

I'm very much looking forward to this conference. I desire a 180degree change in this issue.

Everybody knows, I easily get along with people. I'm easy to get along with. Jokes. Laughs. Lame craps. I'm all in :D

I laugh like a hyena. Seemingly, hyenas are way more tame as compared to huge cats, such as lions, tigers, so on.

But look, I actually stink as well. I love my friends, no doubt. But sometimes, I go overboard. Indirectly, I'm sort of an attention seeker, at times, I admit this. I never like being alone. I love the picture of other wolves, embracing the one and only werewolf.

This werewolf, depicts me. The moon, people around me. The moon's light, obviously the reflection of light, from the sun. Many a times, I have a high expectation upon others. Most of the time, I tend to look down upon them, and never thought of myself.

No matter how bright the moon's light shines, it is never as bright as the sun's. This is my weakness, I never ever look at things, in different angles. Once things spice up, things don't go my way, peeps and mates that make little mistakes, I begin to have this outburst of imperfection. My blood boils, my veins has got this adrenaline rush, my blood flow pumps really fast, causing less part of the brain, to think, deliberately.

I never realize most people are good in their own way. Just like the police, righteous in terms of the law, supposingly, but, still has got their own flaws. I never see that. Once I feel the hunger and the disatisfaction, I tremble upon people. Tearing them apart, by actions, by words.

I've got to learn how to be fair, not just to myself, but to everyone. I should learn how to look at other people and say, they're all just like me, special in their own way. I should learn how to control my stinking temper. I should learn how to appreciate my friends, I never ever want to make another mistake, and make them leave, again.

Please forgive me. I know my wrong. I'm sorry. All of you.

I shall remain as a hyena. Killing the werewolf that is within me, pyrokitty

Double K.

2009-11-29T00:03:00.002+08:00

I think things are back to normal, for the most part.
Just hope that I'll be able to fix this crappy attitude of mine.
I've been dwindling, and dragging to fix it.
This is the time.
I don't want to lose anymore mates.
New ones gained.
No more fading ones.
Thanks Kean and Kian.

I guess this is a good end, for the month of, November 2009 :)

I just realised.

2009-11-27T01:19:00.002+08:00

Today, is an important day.
I apologize for all the problems I've caused.
My fault.
My mistake.
My ego, my attitude problem.

I don't wish and plead for forgiveness.
But, I wish to reconcile with my close ones back.
Deep down inside, I know most of them care for me.
Just that they don't mix with me anymore, because of my attitude.

Well, I thank those who have been true to me.
I thank you if you've spoke words to me, that changes me.
Maybe I should keep certain stuff to myself, and not blow everything up to everyone.
I should learn how to shut up, forgive, control my adrenaline blood that rushes and boils.

Should learn how to balance my opinions. And be silent at the right situations.
I know. I learn. I wish to change. Maybe it's time to pick up my sack, and move on.
All of you, guide me would ya ? =]

Sorry.

2009-11-26T23:25:00.000+08:00

I should learn how to shut up.

Go green !

2009-11-21T23:56:00.003+08:00

Had full dress rehearsal today for the upcoming Christmas play, The Grinch. A temporary dye was sprayed upon my thick bulky hair. Haha.

Tell me what it takes.

2009-11-19T08:31:00.002+08:00

Tell me what it takes, to be a good enough kid.
Tell me what it takes, to be mature.
Tell me what it takes, to meet the obedience's requirements.
Tell me what it takes, to be a son that is a man, not a boy.
Tell me what it takes, to be a good son.
Tell me what it takes, to be a good husband.
Tell me what it takes, to be a good father.

I'll pay you bucks, time, effort for it.

Why am I never a satisfactory son to the both of you, no matter how hard I try and prove myself. I've never complained that I'm not pampered as the only child like any others. All I want, is to be man that is able to lift my head held high, and knowing that my confidence comes from my parents that are proud of their son.

I will never set immature beings as my benchmarks anymore.

A change.

2009-11-18T00:15:00.002+08:00

With the help of my helpful and kind friend, Amelia. I managed to change my blog's skin :D Haha, how's it, green taste this time :) Not that emo. haha. Clean blog skin. Fresh. Swept out unwanted links as well. Refreshing blog with a touch of nature :D

2009-11-17T09:39:00.002+08:00

I love to laugh. I love to make people laugh. People even laugh at the way I laugh.

But still, people leave me because I'm strict in certain things and that I have certain principles that I live by. How sad, I'm too hardcore for this world.

p/s, Don't worry, I won't kill myself, Haha :D

2009-11-12T00:58:00.002+08:00

They actually brought me to experience, chairtop moments :)

Went to service as usual. You wouldn't know, how delighted I am, seeing Aunt.Freda approach me with a smile, asking me to leave the past behind, and serve God. Talking normal again with the funky buddy. Back to normal :) Well, the apology works. Simply because I cared, and I took initiative :)

What point I'm trying to draw is that, what makes a man is not that he makes no mistakes, but being humble enough to apologize and stand up like a man. I did it. I'm proud of myself as well.

Unlike some bunch of people you know. Forget it, I'm just ranting :)

Spoke to Yukki yesterday. She was so afraid that I wasn't gonna talk to her or so, due to certain reasons. But I cleared it off, by saying that I'll give fair treatment towards her, as well as Amelia as well. They're both good friends of mine, still :)

If the unusual peeps, compscience peeps, can celebrate pleasantly for me, I don't see any other reasons or excuses why I'm dejected like a pinball amongst us, should I say, you all ? :)

I FREAKING PASSED COMPSCIENCE2 PAPER ! ;D

2009-11-08T00:16:00.002+08:00

And so it was JiaHui's in advanced birthday celebration earlier on today. Went out with my old peeps from my "proudly presents SMKT", ex-high school -_________-

Good outing. Haha. Feel weird because I'm kinda sick. But I had a good laugh with them as well :)

Hopefully things would turn out the way it suppose to be, tomorrow morning =\

Say who ? Kit :D

Big Issue / Simple Mistake

2009-11-07T00:21:00.003+08:00

It was a typical practice. But shortly, I got annoyed by my buddy, then I blew up in front of everyone, scolded him, quite harsh. His mom was there.

Well, what I can say, is sorry. If you happen to read this, which I don't think so, I'm really sorry. I know aunt looks highly upon me. I know they've treated me like their son. I know he's like my brother and so on. Seems like I owe them more, more than they owe me.

But, you can't blame me you see. I was sick. Throat wasn't in pleasant condition. I was struggling to perform adequately, and to remember my lines. Hope you understand, I didn't meant what I said, it was all outburst or rot.

I'm sorry. I'm willing to pay the price, for our brotherhood to go on normal like usual.

DJ Steve - Nothing But a Dream

2009-11-05T01:15:00.003+08:00

Somehow, I dreamt about you. Seriously, after like 2months without talking, you suddenly appear in my dreams. I don't know how to explain :)

We were talking loads of crap, and riding on roller coasters ? Random much.

I came to realisation just moments ago, and I noticed how wrong I handle our situation last time. Especially the day you hit me with a bang, remember ? I learnt a lot recently. I ditch you, because I think you ignore me, and you don't supply the attention that I need. Now that I know, everything's too late. I was being 'small gas'.

I admit I'm not that loyal, but, I dare say, I'm more loyal than many guys. But whatever, it doesn't matter anymore right ? :)

This post is directly for you. You know who you are, even with the post's title, your favourite song in some dancing online game I suppose ? :3

Hello Kitty (:

Elmo's Sick.

2009-11-02T22:08:00.001+08:00

Cough. Phlegm. Running nose. Mucus that causes flu. Sexy Voice. Need more elaboration ? :)

I'm not gonna update about my birthday anymore. Sweet sailing moments and dreadful bitterness were the right words to describe and explain it all. If you're close to me, you should've know how my sweet-bitter 18th went. Cheers, back to campus in a week :(

Resit D:

Check it out.

2009-10-29T01:12:00.007+08:00

4posts in 4blogs that are presents in forms of blog posts, to me ;D

Thank you ♥'s

Sweet 18th.

2009-10-29T00:26:00.003+08:00

Will update later alright ? Seriously no mood. Due to some arrangements that I ain't happy about. Thanks for the mood spoiling though, seriously completed my birthday with imperfection. Nothing's perfect, therefore you guys had to make it imperfect right ? Firm and good fact. Thank you.

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I remember, I stoodby my house's balcony. 11:53pm, 27th of October. Seeing both of you, standing outside my gate. Unforgettable night :)

Sem Break #2.

2009-10-26T02:41:00.004+08:00

Yay ! Semester break now :D

Finished my finals yo ! Basically, I screwed up my maths and compscience paper. But, it's too late. I guess I'll have to face the facts that I actually have to go for resits. Well, church stuffs are settling down as well. Hope I'll be able to accomplish all, within this sem break.

As you all know, my birthday's coming :D

Haha, 2celebrations passed though.

Firstly, was with the Compscience peeps, they celebrated for me, Beatrice, and Gabriel, at TGIFs. Pictures are partially uploaded to facebook, will upload here I guess, but that's after all my celebrations are done. And so, at the moment, I'll just update the album in Facebook.

Secondly, with church peeps. Tagged along with Yen and Aunt.Elaine's as well. Haha. Great day also.

Lord, all I'm asking for, is fruitfulness and stability as I grow. I want the strength that You have for me. I want to be able to finish tasks without a sweat or a thought to be tired. To love You and to serve You, for the rest of my life. That's all I'm asking for, my 18th birthday.

Repercussions

2009-10-21T23:06:00.005+08:00

In case you're wondering, where did I get the influence to keep a fringe. This is whom I adopted it from. Billy Martin from the band, Good Charlotte. Back in the year 2007 I believe :D He has the awesome look while he's jamming the guitar and keyboard, swinging his fringe, rockstar yo ! x)

By the way, I'm in the midst of my finals now. Haha. It actually lasts 3days only, or 4 ? Had moral yesterday. Piece of cake. Just MCQ's. Today was the bomb. I got high in the morning and written a 900plus full of words essay, then screw up my maths in the afternoon. Oh well. I did my best, seriously =x

Business Communication and Computer Science to go. Then I'm off. Then I'll be waiting from 27th October, 11pm onwards. Stay tuned yo ! ;D

21st, 22nd, 23rd.

2009-10-17T02:34:00.003+08:00

Famous with our shots and bombs on it. haha.

What most of us do, during exams.

English essays are never a problem ;D

Exams are just beside my neighbour's house. Gosh. 21st, 22nd, 23rd. Wish me all the best, peeps. After that, I'm gonna take a break and finish up all the church's stuffs. Ohya, I have to preach on this 24's movie scene =.=

Birthday's around the corner as well :D

Being, humble ?

2009-10-14T09:59:00.003+08:00

Awwwww, I had fun in moral presentation yesterday. I was preparing my jokes and my humour speech at first. Until something break up, and I changed my speech to a serious one.

Someone gave a stupid answer, when Mr.Johnnny propose him a question. Low self esteem, is being humble or too humble ? Oh Emm Gee ! :D

By all means, those children that are abused, they're simply being humble ? Hmmm, put it this way.

Kid, Dad

Dad, I want to be humble.

That's a good thing.

I want to be very humble, no arrogance.

*abuses the kid*

See what I mean ? Please use simpler words if you can't understand the words from the upper class. Talking cock on stage doesn't mean you're cool. Haha. And the best part was, repetitively defending yourself by elaborating more made the 'pyramidhairguy' look like an idiot in disguise. I'm sure his girl was proud of him :) That was the total fun of it ;D

p/s, Don't mess around me with your words. I used to be a debator.

Library Operations

2009-10-14T09:56:00.002+08:00

Presentation and a project's report was all due on Monday for business communication. Everything went bad for every group as well. My group did okay I suppose, as we've all know the last minute work that we put in, we still manage to pull it through. Don't worry guys, I know we're all tied up.

My current mood.

2009-10-10T01:09:00.003+08:00

The last post was an update about what's happening recently, and why am I missing in posts.

Birthday's in like, 18days ? But I'm not having the mood of it. Like, seriously. I feel very drained out. So little time, yet so many things to do. I've not been revising consistently, the time I have, I spent them mending in my assignments, and courseworks. I'm really tired.

Spoke to chongkian recently, that a problem I've only know and found out, recently. Like seriously, I found out that this is a threat to all of us. But I choose not to compromise within the both parties anymore. I'll choose better options the next round. Everything sustains. But still, in order to not waste my dad's hard earned precious twelve thousand, I apologize that I'll have to be a bit self centered in this. Enough of ranting, I'll do my very best, for the last hit.

Came back from cell. Gary was telling about his arrangements for his wedding. I was kinda inspired by the way he arrange things, and the way he handles them. I think to myself, my standards were almost like, half of his, but I'm already let down by someone. To set up his kind of standard, I think most girls would've run away from the surface of my earth. But, no sacrifice, no gain. But it's true. One man deserves only one woman. Choosing the right one, will always be the case, that will be taken care by God, but as well as my initiative also.

Church's fine. Just that I don't like the way the movie bizarre's going on. But whatever, just an offering. Wanna focus more on the VHS tapes and DVD's now. Sick of the turmoils that I've run around, searching for solutions that doesn't seem to dissolve, at any timeframe.

I hope my birthday will be a bang this year. I'm really looking forward to it. But I don't have the mood currently. Surprises are what I'm looking for. Please surprise me, peeps.

P/s, I pinched a monkey today :D

1/3 of October

2009-10-10T00:59:00.004+08:00

One third of the month of my birthday, has passed. Just like that, in 10snaps of my finger. It's currently 10th, 12:59am right now. Finally got the peace of mind and quiet surrounding, to blog.

Schedules are tremendously hectic. No time to even sleep and eat properly. Every single day's just a worry for which assignment or coursework to finish up. Which presentation and report to attend to. Not forgetting the grand finale, which is in 2week's time. 21st. My finals. Darn, I'm not even prepared for mathematics, business communication and computer science as well.

The passed Thursday. We had plays for our english class, as our assignment that was given out 3months back. My particular class, my group did very well. I managed to make people laugh their heads off and feel the pinch in their stomach :D

p/s, I acted a role for Michelle. Haha :D

The guys ;D

This was the group. The usual peeps. Tagged along with my lecturer, ms.Julia in the picture :)

Senghoe's 18th.

2009-09-30T01:44:00.002+08:00

28th was Senghoe's 18th. Which is 1month away from mine :D
hahaha. Need not to elaborate ehh ? :)

We decided to celebrate it the guys way yo ! :)
Makan at william's was great.
Fun-tastic food ! :D
Dota-ed at blitz zone.
Though I lost, we've all laughed like hyenas.
Great day :)
Happy sweet 18th mate :D

Assignments vs Friendship. Friendship vs Assignments.

2009-09-30T01:37:00.002+08:00

17hours in college per week.
3hours at least for assignment purposes.
5hours of transportation per week.
3church services per week, total up, 7hours.
1outreach, 1hour.
Thegrinch play's practice, 1hour plus.
Friday cellgroup, 3hours.
Men's discipleship class, saturday, 1hour.
Morning prayer, mondays to fridays, total of 5hours.
Eat, bath. total up about, 20hours.
I handle the sound system.
I handle the church's drama team.
Going out, to do some church's purpose's functions and transactions.

Look at my most free schedule every week.
I've never give any excuses to push my responsibility away.
Yet, I've always take up new things, just to cover up.
I've never complained nor murmured.
Is this even fair to me ? To push so many things to me and the guys ?

If you're feeling the pinch. Then it's you.

Cheers, I'm a human as well.

Back.

2009-09-23T00:03:00.002+08:00

Back from Fraser's Hill. Pleasant trip. Breeze that contains element of ice. Stay tuned. Will update later. Waiting for pictures, Melvin..

4-3

2009-09-21T00:15:00.002+08:00

Inspiration from waikean's, to update like this. Haha. Here goes...

wakeup. brushup. morning service. mayang jaya restaurant. pork with rat noodles, large. church. fix cables. capture dvds. home. 1hour of sleep. wake up. bath. night service. mingtien foodcourt. dry curry mee+meehoon with shredded chicken. Man-U game. watched from 2-2onwards. hormones unstable. hormones hyped up. 3-2. Big boo. 3-3. Mood potong-ed. Lost hope d. Ka-boom. The crowd went wild. I shouted like a maniac. Behold, 4-3. Owen owned. Giggs assisted. Hormones went gila. Home. Talk to few peeps. Blogging now. Bed later. Fraser's Hill in a couple of hour's time. Ciao peeps. Returning on tuesday :)

What a day.

2009-09-19T22:09:00.003+08:00

Today's practice, was very very good indeed. I guess everyone fits the role that they've been fitted into. The play's picture is getting more and more clear. We had a good laugh over certain things as well. The lame Grinch. Bob. Cindy's dad and mum. So on and so forth.

Badminton was disastrous. Basically, I've not hold the racquet for like, 5weeks. And so, I played like a noob. Careless mistakes are the right words to describe today's game. But, no worries, as I buckle up, I believe I can go back into the badminton lifestyle once again. But I had fun playing with kids. Haha :D

Then, something happened. It was in a car of someone's. 2 people, stabbing and stepping each other with words, in a rude way I guess. And me, being the middle person for both parties, I decided to keep quiet as they were both babbling like egoistic aunties who's having their yumcha(debating session). Basically, the tone and words used, struck me.

Don't worry. I think WeiNi's Elmo song will cheer me up, at least, a bit :)

Update.

2009-09-19T01:32:00.002+08:00

Hmmm. Been busy and tired recently, nowadays. Having a break now though. It started just this afternoon, around 2:08pm. Haha :D

Upcoming 4days.
Saturday - Church routines, practice for the play. Badminton session.
Sunday - Keep the Sabbath holy, get what I mean ? :)
Monday & Tuesday - I'll spent both of the days, up the hills, named Fraser's :D

Looking forward to it though. Church peeps planned for it, approximately 2months back. And so, I'll do last minute packing again, as it's only gonna take up 2days and one night. Having lotsa plans on what we should carry on with Melvin already :)

For the past 2days. I've been putting effort in this fb game which is under Mindjolt Games. Haha. Super addictive and supper brain tickling. Wonder how those nerds and geeks can score up to 6 or 7 times the score I have. Oh well. Simply shows that I ain't a nerd or a geek :D

Ciao peeps. Off to ma bed :)

14.09.09.

2009-09-14T23:15:00.002+08:00

Look what I have in my Visual Basic coursework as my interface today ? Haha. Took this in my college's comp lab. Elmo addiction x)

Nothing much happened today though. And randomly don't know why I have the mood to blog, but yet there's nothing to blog about.

Oh, the play that will be held in my church for Christmas this year, practices officially started just now. Basically, everyone was very hilarious in their own way. Haha. Had fun acting. Need to study and adopt theGrinch's behaviour and gestures. Hmm, feeling green ? ;D

Wonder what did auntysara did for her birthday today. Besides chemistry paper. Har !

Happy 17th.

2009-09-13T23:48:00.002+08:00

excuse my face, I was erm, haha.

Happy 17th Birthday, Ms.Carlyle. Don't know why I'm having memories running through my mind currently, but I'll just share right here. Last year's birthday, I didn't celebrate in any way with you as I remember I was pissed and angry at you, so be it, let it fade.

Somehow, our closure is rare. Simply because we both grew up in church together, since we were kids, running around in church like maniacs. Sunday school that we've attended together, no doubt, fond memories.

Thick and thin times we've been through. At times, I was angry and disatisfied with the way you act or behave but I have to accept now though, that I'm nobody who's perfect to you as well. I believe that's one of the reasons why recently, my blood doesn't boil when there's communication happening.

Memories. Loads and tonnes of them. Countless though. Take me ages to sort them out one by one. So I'll just summarize everything up. Just wanna wish you Happy Birthday. Have a blast on your 17th year. Flying colours in your upcoming SPM. Prayers and goodwill, surely will be maintained between us. Church life would be a lack, if there's no Carlyle in it. Let this be an encouragement for us, to push forward, and serve God whole heartedly.

Yours truly,

Low Kin Kit, Liu Jian Jie ;D

Typical Sunday

2009-09-06T23:39:00.003+08:00

Nothing much to update actually. Typical Sunday ya know, spent in church. As usual.

Considering SuetTeng's idea, to open up my blog, back to public, but ultimately with a condition, which is to set my blog in such a way that it is Cbox-Less, to avoid haters, strangers, lifeless dogs to leave messages that would make themselves look uncivilised ? In a way, I'm being considerate about people degrading themselves. See ? I'm so so so good ;D
Yeah, understanding Kit :D

Had a good laugh at the dinner table just now.

Mr.Oliver should stand out actually, but Meow wanted to be an oddball, just so you know :)

Business Communication

2009-09-05T23:58:00.003+08:00

Had presentation for bus.comm today. Everything went smooth except for Amelia's slide, there was an extra point there that actually needed to be erased, but nevermind.

Apologies to Elyna. I had to leave due to the sore that was boiling both my eyes. Happy Birthday though, I owe you big time :)

All dressed up. Black And White :)

I look tall :D Elegant with a PaiKia look, quoted by Melvin.

The girls forced me to clip my hair, using my tie pin -_-

Perhaps you're right, Melannie.

Tanggal 31

2009-08-31T21:40:00.004+08:00

Happy Independance Day, to every Malaysian that's breathing currently :D
Church had an outing to Port Dickson. Major reason was to held the water baptism for new converts.
Had fun after that.
Went to the border which is near to Melaka, to visit a lighthouse, Tanjung Tuan Lighthouse ;D

Vainity. Once in a while, to distress =p

I find this cool. Melvin and Your Majesty x)

Dad and me.

Alien eyed O.O

The lighthouse.

A view of the sea, when we're up there. Sadly it was too early for us to enjoy the sunset's view.

Back to campus life tomorrow. Dull, plain, mundane, boring, hectic lifestyle.

FBST <3

Another Clownie :)

2009-08-30T14:15:00.003+08:00

Concert night. 29th, yesterday. Didn't manage to update because I was wiped out after updating 2posts last night.

The function went well though. Smooth, except for UncleWong's, slightly screwed =x

Mummy did well in her first performance, acting along with me. I acted okay as well, satisfaction was the word to describe last night's acting. Forgotten about pictures, as we were all busy doing this and that. So, gahhh, boring post D:

Ohya, I met another clown. She's talkative. One of a same species. Ehhh, give me a guess, who is she ? =)

200th post ;D ( 22nd of Aug)

2009-08-30T00:14:00.006+08:00

Huichuin's 18th, celebration. Venue, Mingtien food court. A good reunion with my high school peeps ;D

Pictures will do the rest.

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Birthday Boy ;D

His first cake - muffin (we scared him at first, haha)

Kit & Karunia ?

Sweet Melon Juice :)

Candid shot of me. Vain peeps ;D

Boys Chilling yo~!

Decent ; Awesome

Fookhoy's belated pressie xD

I'm forced to pose ;D

Take #2

Coincidently, we were all in White, unplanned o.o

Great Night :)

15th of July

2009-08-30T00:01:00.003+08:00

This is 15th of July, Saturday. Didn't have the time to update, as I'm having a hectic schedule to settle and go about with, my assignments and stuffs.

Fellowship dinner at Uncle Mark's. Food was pleasant enough as Aunt.Dienna fried 5sets of chicken wings along with drummets, just for me ;D

Had a good laugh at night.

Threesome - Gerard, Melvin, your king-Kit ;D

I was laughing my head off, with Dennis's face and specs XD

Priceless Fringe x)

Candid

Hello Kitty Pen™

2009-08-19T10:24:00.003+08:00

Credits to Myra, this is her pen though :)

Recently I realised we're a bit toned down. Especially the night before today, I was a bit rude, as I was looking for attention.

Nothing much to update actually, just thought of updating when I browse through my album moments ago. Just wanna say, that no matter how hot and cold you treat me, I'll just be there for you. Be your HelloKittyPen™, to guide you and be with you in order to write the next few essays of your life. All I want, is not much, but just a bit of your attention. You can ignore me all you want, though I'll feel dejected, but somehow, I'll cling on to the smiling and laughing memories we had.

Okay, enough of emo rantings :)
Assignments are all piling up and meeting their datelines soon.
Drama's next week.
Presentation in 2weeks time for business communication.
The play for english class, coming up as well.
Looking forward to this Saturday's reunion :)
Ciao peeps :)

*~Hypothermia Love~*

I've decided.

2009-08-15T10:39:00.002+08:00

Like I've said, after waking up the next day, after sleeping, I'll feel much better. And I do.
I decide not to make decissions when my emotional beings are boiling.
Now that I'm neutral and chilled, I shall take a step of faith, to decide what I really want.

I decide, to listen to your voice. I trust what you told me last night, every word. And therefore, I will give you all the time you need, and I'll be waiting.

In the mean time, I won't be disturbing and obstructing you in this manner. I wish to handle this in a mature way, instead of being like a mad kid craving for candies, no. I will ease and loose out everything, giving you the space that you need, as I know there are other countless guys that's bothering you as well.

All I want now, is to be the kitty that you treat me normally. All I ask for, is to be your closest friend. The times where you share everything with me. Facial expressions that doesn't lie.

I will communicate with you as usual. Unless you wish not to. Your wants I will respect. What you said last night, I keep them and believe it with the trust I have in you. All you need, is time and more effort that is required from me. I'll accompany you for the next few chapters of your life. Perhaps, the thing that keeps us away from being together, is fair for us not to be together, as it would ruin this relationship, if we take it too fast ?

I just want to be your closest. I just want everything back to normal. Let's not talk about this, until the day you're ready. I believe with all my heart, that in the future, we can join knots together. I still want you to smile like a mad woman, when you receive my messages. I still want you to laugh your head off, when I make monkey faces. I still want to report you about my daily life. I still want, to listen to your rantings. I still want, to do alllllllll the things that we used to do together. I really really really, am, in love, with a kangaroo's baby.

And gratitudes to extend to, Amelia, Karena, Myra, Chongkian, Gen, Suyin, Engwei, Yain, for being there when I was acting like a sissy yesterday night. Now that I'm calm, to pursue what's best for her, to wait and have the patience to love her, I thank all of you, for your loving and kindness, in order for me to stand up and continuing this walk. It's not time yet, Kit.

Close Budds

2009-08-14T21:29:00.003+08:00

I need all of you.
Friends, I'm not well.
I'm crying like a girl.
I don't feel right.
I feel broken.
I feel the pain.
I feel like a loser.
I feel unwanted.
I feel lonely.
I feel unloved.
I feel Joey hates me.
I feel Hellokitty is not me.
I feel the pain.
Please comfort me, guys ?
I can't believe I'm actually, having tears rolling down from my eyes to my cheeks.
I'm not strong and tough.
I'm weak, Please help me guys.
I'm breaking apart....
Kit's dying inside....

It wasn't good.

2009-08-14T21:05:00.002+08:00

Hey peeps. I'm back from the double date.
Erm, yea, by the title, you know it wasn't good.
Basically, I failed ?
Guess I don't have the looks.
Guess I'm not convincing enough.
Guess I'm not good enough ?
Guess it's normal for me to get rejected ?
Guess I dont deserve you.
Maybe I'm just another guy, who's causing problems to you.
I'm just.. another.. guy ?

I couldn't sleep the day before this.
I smiled to myself when I see your messages, over and over again.
I love video calling you.
I'm hyped up for you.
I get over the past for you.
I love but not lust over you.
I enjoy your smiles and laughters.

I know it. When you don't even look into my face.
I know it. When you don't even talk to me, unless I open my mouth.
I know it. I'm not good enough.
I know it. When you don't even stand still and give me the chance to speak and ask.
I know it. During the dinner.
I know it. When you don't even chase me when I walk fast.
I know it. My face is just like a clown for you to laugh at.

Is it true ? When you told me it's not time yet. Or it's just that it wont happen but you don't let me know ?
Is it true, that you actually have little bit of feeling towards me ?

I hope I have the courage to continue this.
I hope I'll let time prove, that I'm not the just another guy in your list.
I hope, tonight's emo-ism will end sooner or later.
I hope, you will really look into me, in the future.
I hope, we can be like bryan and yain ?

But if you don't want kitty anymore, I will never disturb you again.
But if you hate me, please let me know.
But if you wish that I give up, please tell me so.

I love you so. Forgive me, because it's my first time, asking a girl, real life. It used to be phone calls and messages to other girls. You were the first, I ask, face to face, no, face to your head, because you weren't looking into my face. I'll continue talking, but not today. Let me break down for a few days. All I want, is you. All I need, is you. All I wait and long for, is you. I'll push, till you say it's the right time.

Broken one, Kit.

Hatred Poem, for english Class.

2009-08-13T23:32:00.003+08:00

My smile ; Your Smile

It used to be a fairytale.
A life filled with love and romance.
Your pretty face that is on my mind every night before I close my eyes and every morning when I open up my eyes.

It then turned into bitterness.
You left the picture when we used to paint it together.
I changed.
Emotionally unstable. Hatred sets in. Vulgarity. I curse. The world's ugly and falling apart.

It then turned into pure hatred.
When I see you around, I wish I have the liberty to swing my fist on your nose, to make it flat.
I wish to see your pictures with your purple face that is full with aches and bruises.
Basically, I wish you vanish from the face of this planet.
Hate to see you happy and indulging with your new toy, while I'm all alone suffocating from loneliness.

I hate you.
I hate you so much for turning joybits into bitterness.
You're just a girl who'll get hit by karma, meeting your misfortune sooner or later, ending up ten times worse than what I had.
While I'm diffrent, trying to stand up with one leg, waiting for the opportunity to excel and step you on your back.
I hate you.
You shall be called, Hated.

This was the poem in class today, that I wrote. Joey's wish to see this. But I couldn't really remember the exact writing =)
Joey, you're not a substitute, you're the one. Rawr~! x)

Kit

2009-08-09T17:10:00.007+08:00

Low Kin Kit =)

Somehow, got an inspiration from ChongKian's blog ;D

And of course, Joey's nagging for an update.

Low and behold, I shall update a bit about myself today.

Good and bad about me. Honest truths, no favouritism.

I'm a simple, crazy outgoing guy, I suppose.

I get along with people very well most of the time.

Having favour with contacts is vital I believe.

To you, I may not be hilarious, but I like being hilarious, to see people laugh :)

I can get hype up fast, or the opposite, being very emotional at times.

I don't have a religion, but a relationship with the Almighty God.

I am very firm with my point of views.

I am very protective over myself and peers, yet sometimes I am over-protective.

Voicing out my opinion was never a challenge to me, I'm not the guy who likes to sit on a bench.

Though I question myself about leadership, but I would lead if I have to.

Looking forward to only lifetime relationships. Why need temporary ones right ? They rot.

I accept confrontation, if my deed contradicts iniquities.

Darkness and Light. I would choose to be on the right side. But it's hard. Always the case.

Very Sensitive over lil things, but it's way much better these days.

Once the fire is buring, it burns continuously and it spreads, all the time. Speaks of my anger.

I have the difficulty in forgiving and forget. Normally this would take months or years for me to go through this sentification process.

If you know me well, I'll stab you back ten times worse the damage that you caused. All my buddies knew this.

At times I tend to give up, but most of the time, pushing on is also my mindset.

I'm hilarious. I'm kinda gila. I'm outgoing. I'm bold in terms of voicing out. I'm emotional. I'm protective and over-protective. I'm unforgiving. I speak of the truth that blesses and hurts. I'm aggressive in reactions. I'm weak and strong in the name of the Lord. What else .....? :)

Watching you, from the other side.

2009-08-05T01:06:00.003+08:00

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Seriously, it's my first time. Accompanying someone so long through video call. 3hours 24minutes. I'm glad that you still treat me the same, even after I told you some stuffs. Hope you've got no more peka's to do, so that I can sleep early, haha ! :D
Get well soon, with your runningnose =\ Hmm, everytime you say, sms you tomorrow morning, makes me think of my day the next day, wont be dull :) You like to purposely irritate me by turning the light off and on, I don't like biscuits nor cookies, but you can purposely eat chipsmore in front of me, like there's no other cookies left in the world, then if you're shy and wrong, you would hide beneath your blanket or bolster and peep what I'm saying. You're cute, in your own way :)

I rawr you.

I'm your Guardian Angel.

Belated Picture from Pioneer Rally

2009-08-03T00:05:00.002+08:00

Melvin, Jasper, Your Highness xD

Do you think of me, when I'm not around ?

I doubt.

I'm least worthy of anything.

I think too much.

Impossible is the thing.

But I feel happy talking to you....

Friday.

2009-08-01T00:03:00.006+08:00

Sorry, I can only find this pic xD

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What happened today, in class, my thoughts and feelings, need not to elaborate. Let it be, my mistake.

I humble myself, stretching out one arm. Because all this while, I never had the chance to be friends with you. But it's okay, I understand. I have no intentions or motives though. Just sincerely wanting to be your friend, just like being one, to others. But it's okay if you don't want it, your loss, not my problem =) Right peeps ? hahaha. Perasan betul. So yeah =)

I specially want to thank and extend my gratitude to Joey today. She turned an emo monster to a happy boy in just a couple of hours. I never thought I could cheer up in such a quick moment. A glimpse of what happened today, was "mind blAAAAAASSSSSSSTING" - *inside joke*, haha.

What I told you last week, you used it back on me today. And for that, I thank you, and I acknowledge that you actually care for me, even it's just little bits. 4letter name, J-O-E-Y. Joey Phang =)

2009-07-30T21:15:00.003+08:00

I apologize for the misunderstanding.
You used the F word once, in our argument once, remember?
But to assure you, it was true that it took 3months.
But you only took 12days.

This time, it's really my mistake. I didn't find out clearly in the first place, then I just hentam -.- haihs, but I dare to do, dare to admit. It was my outburst of rot, without rational thinking about the repercussions of it. And so, I'm here to say sorry. I already moved on. I didn't have the intention to disturb you anyway. It was only curiousity that caused to wonder what has been posted in your post. So, actually it's my fault. In this matter, I apologize.

Enough saying, you can confront me if you want. I didn't mean to disturb you anyway. But then, I apologize, for peace sake, and it's not fair for you. Sorry.

Now I understand that you might have repented and there's no need for me to dig up the past. I believe God forgave me, so does he forgave you the same as well. I do things accordingly to my ego sometimes, very protective over myself and peers around me, for that, I apologize as well.

Joey, can cheer me up ? :(

Late July

2009-07-28T00:02:00.002+08:00

Realised that this haircut wasn't so bad after all :D

Cousins from Australia came back for some tendency procedures to resolve. They treat my family a dinner when they dropby. When we went back to my house, we had our family talk, including our spiritual testimonies and sharing as well. As they lay their hands and pray for us, I shed my tears. I began to feel the conviction of the Holy Ghost, saturated right upon that very moment. God's love, will never fail. He is my heavenly father, a God who speaks, hears our cries, listens to our sorrows, and most of all, taking us as sons and daughters.

I got rid of the 'back to college' hype as I feel the stress being pumped into my blood vessels. Slowly, assignments are revealing themselves one by one, up the comfort zone that I love to slack on. Get ready peeps, Semester 2 will be focussed more on presentation skills :)

1st day of Semester 2

2009-07-21T00:58:00.002+08:00

This is my results for semester 1. Just showing you the grades, I think that I need not to show you the marks for it, haha. Overall I'm satisfied as I passed my computer science with a C which the whole class performed the same as well, so be it. Click to enlarge*

Semester 2. English was okay, as we were told that our assignment this time would be, us, conducting a play, haha, something like what I always do in church, dramas and plays, so, I guess it wouldn't be an obstacle for me. Lucky enough.

Computer science. Started with some sort of easy client or buttons programming. Using Microsoft Visual Basic 6.0.

Now Business Communication. A whole new subject where we have to go serious as my lecturer is very keen and strict. Writing and Communication skills. Vital. Need not to elaborate much as well, as I feel this course would be a good one for me. But I'm pretty amazed that someone, besides my elders in church, which is an oddball, an outsider, would behave the same way. I'm delighted to be under this new lecturer's disciplinary acts, as it would improve and most importantly enchance what is needed. Challenging.

It has ended and started.

2009-07-19T22:56:00.007+08:00

Chapter 2. Chapter 1 was, dreadful.

Ended, semester 1. Starting, semester 2.

I guess tomorrow will be exciting, as a whole new adventure is about to begin in just a few hours. Slightly delighted to take the bus as RapidKL purchased new buses for the bus line that I'm actually using which is T623. Haha. Sat it once, before the holiday though. Whole new chapters along with a new subject, Business Communication. Starting off with english tomorrow.

Just to recap what I've done throughout the holiday.

First week :

Not many out goings. Just Digital Mall, Timesquare and the rest, Church.

Second week :

Didn't really step out of the house as well, just Church, back to campus to pay up my fees, and a jogging session with Melvin. Had a haircut today as well. Haha.

The court

Some odd ocassion happened yesterday and therefore, Gary had to call off the badminton game play yesterday. And so, I decided to follow UncleChin to Aunt Elaine's place to have the game instead. Gosh. This Chin family made me run like a chicken without a head, but it was my request though, haha. Had a great time draining out myself. Thats all I guess, not a very exciting holiday, but at least, I manage to rest. See you peeps in campus :)

Outdated Pics.

2009-07-16T13:39:00.005+08:00

I believe it's 29th of April

Fookhoy joined me with my favourite pose. Haha :D

Presenting you, monkeys from the past, LOL :D

Haha, WenKai couldn't take it xD

Time to pay up. In my opionion, I look better with fringe, see ? =(

The group pic. With our food, and no, weevien is not mine, stop asking xD
See my fringe... awwwwww =(

I can still clearly recall the table talk with Karina at that point of time. Today, it is all reminiscences of time. But peeps, I'm looking around :)

Private Priority

2009-07-13T13:26:00.000+08:00

Blog has been set to private. Probably gonna open it back public, about a month later.

This is to ignore the idiot that's staying in Section 1.

Even, this has caused me to accidentally blocked waikean's ip address, haihs D:

If the problem persists, URL of the blog will be changed.

Stay tuned, peeps :)

Gadgets to Wake Up and Enchance.

2009-07-09T00:22:00.004+08:00

Tuesday

Went out with KV and Gen to section 14, digital mall, to get some of my notebook's gadgets. Prices were really convincing. But finally got everything except the backpack, as the prices weren't able to capture my attention. So I got myself a cooling pad, keyboard protector, 4slot plugpoints, notebook cloth and sponge based folder, and got a free LCD screen cleaner. Total up to rm71.80.

Wednesday

Had a slight fever, realised it when I woke up. But it got okay by noon as I
buck up and kept drinking water :)

And then, someone asked me for some little favour, as my mood was not really good, due to the heat in my body, I was about to get pissed, but I told myself, he is my buddy, so, just listen and see what he has to say.

And true enough, he woke me up. Just BOOM ! Suddenly I felt like I got saved from drowning. What he said was right. It totally hit me. And it got me thinking for a few hours as well. But I have come to my realisation that it's time, to wake up from my dreams. Thanks budd, you know who you are :D

Us.

2009-07-07T01:12:00.007+08:00

the Royal Family

We Unite As One

Kit, Corn, Boon, s.Hoe, Karena, Meow, Princess-Princess(haha, inside joke), Yuki, Ame

I believe in karma. What you sow, is what you'll reap. Today, I have them, in heart and in mind. Sincerely, not hiding anything from each other. Do you have them ? You might say yes, but are you assured that they don't hide the truth behind your back ? Karma. Indeed Karma. Yes I might be biased. But I speak of the truth. How sad to see your friends, turn your backs on you. Awwwwwwww <3

Not working.

2009-07-04T21:33:00.004+08:00

Yes. Not gonna work during this sem break. Due to mom's over-protective issue. 360bucks. Gone. Just like that. No new shirts. No new slacks. No new laptop accessories. No more extra money to cover up my dull allowence.

Not feeling alright. Feel like going out...

Anyone ?

Sem Break.

2009-07-04T16:08:00.002+08:00

This 2months after I last cut my hair short :D

Its Been So Long, Long, Long.. That I haven't capture a picture ~

Tried to capture one~

But then my hair, hair, hair, hahahahhahahaha. xD

Well, 1st semester's examination, officially ended. What a relief for me. Summarize everything up, every subject was fine, excluding mathematics I guess.

1st day C&I - Was fine, not a problem to pass I guess

2nd day CT - This is also fine, but it took me quite some time to finish up the paper

3rd day English & Maths - English was finally challenging, to me. Haha. While maths, haihs -_-

Last day Comp Science - Wasn't as hard as I expected it to be. Thank God :)

2weeks of rest, no ? I'm probably gonna start work on Monday. At Salvation again. But waiting for confirmation, from my mum. Hmm, it's been a while since I had new clothes, haha. Probably to cover up 1 or 2month's allowence as well. And so, chill out peeps :)

Down the Road.

2009-06-29T22:36:00.002+08:00

I can still remember clearly. The downfall of my SPM results. Then the decission to enter college immediately, still so fresh in my mind. It was a week before the orientation day, March 19th, after I enrolled. I was praying to the Almighty, asking for friends and peers that carries good influences. None smoking and drinking ones. The ones that are extroverts that doesn't hit the clubs. That was Pastor's pray for me also. The ones who study and doesn't waste their parent's money to sit in class doing nothing.

And today, 29th of June. I look back. 3months and 9days down the road. The Lord has not only provided 1friend which was what I prayed for, but a WHOLE BUNCH OF THEM. More than 10. The lunch and the walking around in Pyramid was really moments of fun. The clean jokes that were made, having us laughing out loud in the whole mall and the whole lunch venue, like monkeys that found bananas.

Truly, I treasure them. Each and everyone of them. They were there, when I had twitches and problems. And even conflicts. ChongKian and WaiKean that gives good rasional advices. Myra, Amelia, Karena, Michelle Lim, Jack Chung, Ivan that hear my rantings. Jacky, CheeBoon, SengHoe, KaiVern, Kevin the hillarious buddies. Su Yin and Yukki the quiet ones yet decent ladies. Times with all of you, were great and unique in their own specific ways which I can't comprehend and put in words.

Do I fit in well in my campus and with my mates ?

The answer would be...

Certainly and indeed, a Yes.

And a shout out to CornBoy, Cheer up man. Life's still bright ahead. We are all here to support you. Knowing how you've been there for me at times, I'll be there, stretching out a helping hand, if you need so. Rawk on, with crap for life =D

Michelle's 18.

2009-06-29T22:14:00.003+08:00

It was just an ordinary day, without any plans, but my course's having a consultation day. Reaching college in the morning at 8. Breakfast with XC, Karena along with Amelia. Went and study in the library till 11 when everybody arrived in the staff room. Then all of us headed towards pyramid by using the shuttle bus. And we went to wongkok for lunch because it was Michelle's birthday yesterday. And so, there's this big teh ice, FOR FREE ! XD
People who celebrated together was obviously myself, followed by ChongKian, Myra, SengHoe, CheeBoon, Yukki, Andrew, Amelia, Karena. After the lunch, we lingered around the mall, looking for ChongKian and CheeBoon's stuffs. We laughed our lungs out, HAHA :D

This is basically the group photo. The other one is nice but my eyes were retarted looking, therefore I decided to upload this instead of the other one.

And this the 18 year OLD woman. haha. Michelle.

And wrapping the day by having dinner in New Paris Restaurant ss2. Bill was Gerard's. Good food and fellowship :)

Pink. Not Purple.

2009-06-28T23:58:00.006+08:00

The Complete Picture. Where were you ? Guess you're playing with your new toy on your finger.

Why ask Karena to tell me ?

She's not your dog weih.

She's my good friend weih, don't use her as a tool, in order to face me.

Look into the mirror.

Do you see a reflection of who you are ?

I guess not.

All you know, is to hide.

Not afraid to see me ?

Yes you are.

Just that the pride that covers you, don't wanna lose face.

I've had countless testimonies of people's impression towards you.

A disgrace and a dissapointment for us christians.

Simply pick a mate that knows me and you.

See who will they give positive comments to.

I stand on my ground.

I live my own life.

All I did, was giving comments to Myra's picture.

And it isn't your account.

Typical Bullshit, Coward.

I'm your best competitor. Not companion.

The way I talk, none of your business.

And you were the first one who threw vulgar words at me.

One simple piece of advice, is to not brag about your new toys, for He* will take it away one day.

This is so wrong. Haha.

2009-06-28T18:08:00.002+08:00

Know me and seen me real life, this is just plain crap. Haha :D

Concert 27th of June

2009-06-28T00:23:00.003+08:00

Destiny Awaits, If you serve the Lord whole heartedly

Church had a concert today. It was great. I mean, really great. A Blast. MIND BLAAAAASSSSSTING ! XD

As usual, songs, clips and a drama were performed. I paired up with Joseph and pulled the drama off, it was great, just the scene that lacked of the sinner's prayer. Pastor Dan from India came to play 2 songs as well, fuiyo, so chun his guitar skills xD

When the concert ended. I went for dinner, then back home, and now blogging. As I'm blogging right now, I think back, for the past 2weeks I've been really tired. Handling college stuffs, church stuffs, the practices, the examination which is coming up, real soon. I'm really encouraged...

Maths Presentation

2009-06-22T00:51:00.000+08:00

Only Pictures :D

Bak Kut Teh.

2009-06-20T23:56:00.000+08:00

4bowls of rice, bottom left, 7o clock direction, haha, ya, i ate 4bowls xD
A day out, with college peeps :D
lots were not in the pic though =\

Got my laptop already. It works Superb. Satisfied so far.

Having study break now. Ciao Peeps :)

Down

2009-06-16T14:02:00.002+08:00

Were chilling with San Francisco Coffee :)

Group pic for Maths project paper

Recent photo shoots with college mates :D haha. Lots more though, no chances to take decent pictures with them. Maybe later :)

Internet down since last Wednesday. So, just wait and see how it goes, because my studio 15's arriving this Wednesday, yea, i know, it's like, 1month already -.- Hope it's the modem's fault though. Then I can sort things out, then get back online, most importantly, to keep my restaurant city up, to compete with Ms.Karunia xD

Ciao peeps :)

6th Of June

2009-06-07T14:18:00.004+08:00

Are you one ? XD ~~!

Man's Discipleship Valley. Only For Men. Haha, indeed, I went without much expectation actually, but it the end, it turned out very good, as there are points that encouraged me.

Ponder and think about the situations I'm in, I learned that :

Problems, dilemmas, circumstances of life, are there to mould and shape you better, not bitter.

Every trial and tribulation, has its time and period, ends after a certain amount of time, so, Why Give up something that eventually meets the end and have the breakthrough which we long for ?

Before Hardship, we are trained to become strong, but why should I fall when the storms arrive ?

Have we lost our first love towards God, and stop being on fire, because of the silly pasts ?

Jabbing in punches of pray and witness, doing more and more for Him. Cut off excuses, only give reasonable reasons. Strive and Excel in His temporary earthly kingdom. Love others like yourselves. Fulfill His will. Is what I'll be doing, continuously...

2009-06-01T00:32:00.002+08:00

Some leftovers from Pioneer Rally 2009.
It was a Saturday. Every youth from every branch, wearing White :D

Karen potong la -.- black skit ! -.-

This is a decent pic :) Tho Im shorter than Pastor Joe and slightly shorter than Melvin xD

And lastly, Us :D

Wonders.

2009-06-01T00:18:00.004+08:00

Somehow, there are thoughts that are running through my mind. Wondering what could happen, when things turn around the other way.

"What if Jesus were selfish, and say he doesn't wanna die for us ?
What if Jesus gives up, and stop having compassion and love for us ?
What if Jesus wasn't gracious and merciful ?"

Guess I wouldn't change. And of course, no assurance of entering the Kingdom of Heaven.

There is no point for me, to fill up my spiritual cup every Sunday, feeling hyped up and burn with fire.. and get drained out by Monday or Tuesday itself.
There is no point for me, to do His will, and take Him for granted in other manner.
There is no point for me, to question Him, why is she like that. When He has a she for me, in the future.

It got me thinking that how noble He is.

Recall the sleepover. Haha, Definitely fun fun fun ! :D
Chongkian and TarantulaKean. Tagged along with Senghoe the 2nd day.
Midnight craze of IndoMee, Chrysanthemum tea, and an ice cream. Unforgettable Moments.
Seeing the 2fellas pp* haha. funny.

The issue, was a minor one. Compared to Jesus's footsteps, leading to the place where He was crucified, mine was nothing. I choose to live a meaningful life, dwell in His presence, hoping that my heart leaps with Joy around my Good Influences. And serving Him, the rest of my life :)

Wolverine.

2009-05-28T10:19:00.004+08:00

I wish I have the Claws, and the bearable pain that is able to overcome many things.

To slash and slice you into pieces.

To take all the necessary physical pain. Seeing you in pieces on the ground.

Like a satisfaction after indulging a blood bath.

"This is a shout out to each and everyone, Kit is back :D
I can't be letting this minor things and a worthless garbage to interrupt me :D
I wont lay a tear no more, for the animal's lust.
It is me, who choose to let go, knowing that there's a rotten fruit among and in within our campus. Be sure, Kit is Back..."

Let it Be.

2009-05-26T20:44:00.002+08:00

Found myself drowning in a pool.
I choose now, to not care anymore.
It will never be my fight, though I ain't wrong.
I have buddies to back me up.
I have things to handle.
I'm managing my time wisely.
I will be wiser next time.
I will enjoy my times with coursemates.
I will do my part in church.

From this day, let it end.

Studio 15

2009-05-25T00:14:00.002+08:00

Spoke to my dad. He says yes :D
Hello Studio 15, be my new pal x)

Specs are as below :

ProcessorIntel® Centrino® 2 Processor Technology- Intel® Core™2 Duo Processor P8600 (2.40GHz)
Windows Vista Home Premium 32bit
4Gb DDR2-ram
250Gb 7200rpm Hard Disk Space
A typical Dvd Burner Slot
256MB ATI Mobility Radeon™ HD 4570 Graphic Card
Intel® WiFi Link 5100 802.11a/g/n Half Mini-card
3years McAfee anti virus
RM3292 nett. 12 months installment, RM275 per month. 0% interest rate with Maybank Credit Card.

See me with my big o'15inch gadget people ! :D

Ignorance.

2009-05-25T00:06:00.002+08:00

Have you've ever wonder why I give up to pursue it anymore ?

Wake Up.

I can assure you, the problem isn't from me. Throw the minor ones away, the major ones are from you. Don't say until like so kesian, until like, all my fault, until like, you godlike no mistakes, until like, you're the best. Wake up la, you don't know what you're saying la, so ignorant and childish, even use scriptures to splat my face, if I were to pick out scriptures, you will run away from me one lor kay ? -.-

2months.

2009-05-18T22:44:00.003+08:00

2months after the orientation day.

College life is as predicted by many seniors, busy busy busy, haha, tonnes of work to do, tough assignments awaits, presentation that's never ending, course works that are piling up like hills. But I'm very cheered with the bunch of people that I have in mind now, thanks to WaiKean, Chongkian and Senghoe being close buddies in such a short period. Thanks to Kaivern and Gen for the free rides back home :) And a few friendly people :D

Went out hanging around in Pyramid today with the budds, it was fun though, having lots and lots and lots of laughters, haha ! Went to mingtien for dinner because I ask Waikean to give me a lift after dinner, thanks :) Senghoe insisted to go back home, because his mom cooked and don't wanna get screwed, haha. Good day.

Perhaps it was just a glimpse of Happiness.